'Are you here with someone?
This simple question can still crush me & make me feel so small.
Yesterday morning, my wife pushed me to get out of the house for a bit.
Been working way too much lately.
So I decided to do some fishing off the docks of the marina we live by.
We just got a membership so that we could store our kayaks.
I had visions of a quiet little morning, audiobook on, sipping coffee, probably not catching anything, but who cares.
But that was shattered almost as soon as it started.
A woman approached me and asked.
'Excuse me, but are you here with someone?'
Clearly implying that I wasn't supposed to be 'there'
How could I be?
I don't fit the stereotype of a 'marina club' member.
I must have been trespassing right?
A pure menace, you know me.
But there I was having to 'defend' why I was indeed 'allowed' to be there.
She was surprised but could tell also still doubting me.
I felt so small.
I felt embarrassed.
I was the only.
I shouldn't have to feel that way.
I'm tired of it.
I'm sharing this story, not for your sympathy, don't need or want it, I'm a big boy.
But because there are others 'onlys' that are dealing with this too.
Keep on fighting
Keep on rising.
You are not small.
You do belong.