tennis and sales mentioned how family sucks and it threw him off this weekend
i mentioned how i cutoff my family last year and moved across the country
he was curious
its a long story but might as well post about it
long story short I came from an abusive family, growing up from as young as I can remember I faced every kind of abuse.
i was groomed and gaslit to think things were normal and 'it's family' or 'thats just how they are and its okay cause its family'
with a lack of emotional, mental, or physical support from my family and me continuously giving themm all my heart by the time I reached 26 I realized (thanks to my SO now) that i wasn't who I actually am.
I didnt stand up for myself to be who I really am because the pressure from a gaslighting narcissistic toxic family was too much for me to stand up against.
but I had to do something. so I started getting more heavy into my crystal shop, I started making content on social media about it. my family hated it and told me to quit it or they would kick me out of the house (conservative Christians thinking crystals are demonic)
so I left that night and stayed with a friend for a few months.
i ended up trying to contact detectives and start a case against a cousin who had.. abused me. growing up. I asked my family for support to get justice for me from everyone but they all instead protected my cousin bc he was family and told me to let it go. my father, mother, brother all turned against me and told me it was my fault. and my extended family the same.
so I decided to cut ties with them. they refused to support me mentally and spiritually and backed my abuser, and contributed to it.
I had to leave my friends plaace after a few months bc it was a bad environment with lots of weedsmoking and illegal activities.I had quit my job a few months prior and was living off my shop then. I ended up putting my shop in a storage and decided to be homeless instead.
i was homelesd for 4 months before I took a train to the other side of the country, got a warehouse job, stayed weekly in an in, and moved my way up to that first sales job when I got back on this platform, got a apartment somehow, and now two jobs later im here.
learning how to reclaim my life, be free of abuse and toxicity. its like I lived my whole life as a small fraction of myself and im finally learning who I actually am and what I enjoy.
anyways. it's been a ride, but Im happier than ive ever been and being with my SO only this thanksgiving was freeing. and It's been beneficial letting go.
as for sales
i got a few warm conversations to book meetings with on this monday and hoping some of them pull through for a strong week
doing another demo video for collateral
got my mug
worked on some more case studies with marketing
and gonna make some calls and emails/developed a better strategy w manager to go after 5 target accounts this week
thats all
much love
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