Rant: I just need another 100k this month and I'll effectively double my commission and pull in a 6 figure check.

So here I am, bouncing between the "oh well that's sales" attitude and wanting to rip someone's head off attitude.

Essentially I'm 100k off from hitting a crazy accelerator that would double my commission check into the 6 figures all for a single month. For a while it seemed like a done deal until multiple issues beyond my control started to pop up.

One client recently changed their funding process which effectively doubled the amount of time it takes them to get money put together for a big purchase, now we're down to the wire on wether or not it'll happen before July 1st. It's anyones guess at this point.

Another client was hot to trot on a 500k order on Friday, going as far as to end our call by asking me to send the contract and invoice. However, the folks are in charge of those two steps were near unresponsive and didn't get them out before this Monday after my client had a meeting that pursuaded him to hold off for 3 weeks.

This morning the same client for the 500k wanted to run at test at 50K. I was set to convince him to bump it to 100k which wouldn't have been much of a challenge. When getting approval from the CEO he brought in our data team to see if it was going to work at the agreed upon amount only to find out that someone had screwed something up on our end effectively muddying the waters of data and infusing a small amount of doubt surrounting our price point causing my CEO to want to change the parameters of the test and likely convincing my client to go back to wanting to hold off for 3 weeks.

I can easily take it when I know that I screwed up, but when someone else's actions are what cost me money I have a hard time being civil so I choose just to avoid talking with anyone about it rather than losing control of my tongue and saying things I'll likely regret.