I has been almost a year now since I started my first sales role (SDR). In this year, I haven't taken a day off and worked on public holidays as well because I was struggling and behind so I wanted to show that I still try my best.
A month ago I have been placed on PIP, did everything they told me to do and still I missed quota this month.
My mental health is fucking wrecked. I do not get to relax, I feel at the edge always.
I am not sure if I can find a better job or any job because of all this mass layoffs. I am not sure where to look or should I even start looking. My visa is totally dependent on my work.
I moved my whole life here only a year ago, my fiancee started to study and work, I got a dog.
It is extremely hard to find a rental in Amsterdam now and I am not even sure if I will have a job so not sure if I should renew my rental contract
Now; all messed up. I do not want to go back to my home country because it would be the end of me(Turkey, it is a total shit hole).
I am fed up and I can not focus on anything clearly because there are so many things to consider.
What should I do? I am at the brink of crying even writing this tbh
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