I'm at a crossroads, and I'm so demotivated that I'm struggling to even think of a place where I might fit. I'm hopeful that my fellow savages will lean on their experience and give this 'small town girl' some ideas of companies to research to get pumped about a job search.
I am a top-notch relationship developer, totally thrive on in-person interaction. Throw me into a convention and I'll bring you more referrals and leads than you can dream of. People person all the way. Scrappy as fuck, if you challenge me that I can't get into an account I'll find my way in. Nobody puts baby in a corner. A sometimes overwhelming dedication to CX. I've been in technology for almost my entire professional career, but I honestly hate it. I look at every deal as a game of chess and every move matters.
What I'm not: a technical SME, down for a role that has me WFH 100% of the time. That's pretty much it.
I'm in a weird spot where my current role has decimated my confidence, so I'm really struggling to think I'm good enough for any of the roles I see. I'm the first ever sales hire for my company, and I'm actually competing against the owners/partners so it puts me in a position to fail every fucking time because owning the place is the ultimate trump card. Realistically I know that I'm a god damn killer I just need out of this environment, but anxiety is a bitch and I can't stop thinking about how I'm going to overcome a completely unsuccessful 18m stint somewhere. I have 3 standing job offers for 'whenever I give up' on my current role from business owners, but none of them are ideal.
Can my fellow savages give me some ideas of what ideal might even look like? I've always worked for smaller, locally owned companies- and every time I've left a job it's been because I was recruited away. I want to change that, but no idea where to start.