I was watching the Money Explained docuseries on Netflix tonight and stumbled upon the gambling episode. I was like "look at those pigeons, getting their dopamine fix with chance games. Glad I'm not like them."
Then it hit me like a ton of bricks. I'm obsessive about checking emails, msgs, calls, etc. especially when I'm waiting on a contract. Not to the point it's obnoxious and pestering clients - they rotate. (Therapist has also told me I work too much). I'm no different that those gambling addicts chasing a high from a closed won! Every meeting, every signed contract, negotiations my way- it's like a dopamine hit. Ugh, what is wrong with me. Am I addicted to sales?!