Sales is blah

Sales is blah. I'm bored, I'm tired, I'm motivated enough but it's been going downward for months. If I woke up tomorrow and money was no object I 100% would not be in sales but it's a better gig than a lot of the other shit jobs out there.

I wish I had the motivation to really go after a more creative job but that takes a lot as well. I'm not sure any of that would be worth the effort and I'm slogging through life (I live for moments with friends and family outside of work). I'm jealous of people who can blindly be happy and fulfilled by their work.

I dream of a world where we get universal basic income and can all work as little or much as we like. I've looked into being a forest ranger but it doesn't pay much and you'd have to move somewhere you'd be more lonely (I'm single).

Sometimes I really think is this the rest of my life or just the next couple years? A lot of people have kids so have that inner motivation to push for their kids (I'm 31 and don't have that).

I'm just typing this because if you feel the same way you aren't alone.

I'm here. I'll keep going forward as long as they don't fire me (for now). Dreaming of blowing my savings and traveling but I know deep down that would give me anxiety.

Ok don't delete my commission. ;)